A sigh behind the screen. Water splashed into the face, hands pressed to the cold skin, fingers splayed as water ran down both his hands. He was quivering with pain, too tired to even be angry. So he took a few more breaths, straightening. The resonance of his heartbeat felt like it was echoing through the entire tub as his body mended, ever so slowly. The pain would take minutes to numb out with the drug. The drug would make him slow. But he didn't think he had reason to suspect foul play from Laric.
"Laric, listen. You have to hear me." His voice cracked, finally, gaining an edge, uneven quality. "You bloody startled me, appearing like a ghost. There's just been several days of violence and tending to my men and carting them all the way to Bremen - despite the brigands fleeing from marsh wars, ...good gods, man I was ready to put a knife in you before I recognized it was you. What if I hurt you? Can you even begin to consider at least that? I'm touched that you came to visit, but- please, do better in announcing yourself. You know so much better than most, I'm not a gentle dame that will jump and giggle if grabbed out of the blue, what if I actually hurt you, because I don't want to do that." That thought seemed to trouble him, most. It was not just about Laric, and what bonds they were awkwardly trying to rekindle. Something about his humanity, too. Something about not becoming like those things.
An inhale, another handful splash into the face, a hard swallow. He was a lord. The responsibility for all the people in his domain was on him.
"Stay. Do you want anything? I have some elven wine in the... the decanter, leftmost shelf. And a narguile I brought from the south."
He was not going to play a game when a reason for Laric sneaking into his bedroom was revealed, and voicing that Laric's come to Bremen because of what they shared by the campfire would only stoke the conflict. He was too tired to be moved into the slot of inconsiderate bastard tonight. Not that his own concern was not quite valid. The wound he could have dealt if his tired mind didn't catch up - was nothing even a healer could remedy quickly.
"Fuck," he whispered, under his breath, not to Laric but trying to wrangle a thought still ringing in his head in abating echoes, catching up with the rest of his body that didn't feel quite connected with his mind... never did after bloody, dark things like these, until it clicked back together. "If I didn't-"
Exhale, inhale.
He stood again, skeletal hand grabbed the edge of the tub to keep him steady, and wiped the rest of himself. Didn't feel clean, but could not stand the ache anymore. Then again, he would not feel clean until he'd rub the skin raw - and not having dirt or blood or sweat on him anymore had to be good enough for now.
A long shirt slid over his head, arms shrugged into the sleeves awkwardly to keep his right hand out of sight. Stepped into the shoes, didn't bother with trousers with the edge of the loosely draping fabric being just around the knee - he wasn't that well-hung.
He didn't want to be seen until he clicked into being whole again, like a faulty mechanism. He was tired. He was hurting. He was not all there. Andin his room, he chased the servants away until morning because he needed a sanctuary to recollect himself. He didn't want to be seen weak, pathetically scrambling to get the words out in phrases long enough, soothing enough. He didn't want to be forced into a position where he had to fight through himself just to keep composure and bite down on words too harsh. He wanted rest, a space where he could unravel, weep away the stress if need be. A fresh one-night lover, former-maybe-future friend, was not unwelcome, nor was his concern invalid. Touching things, things he did appreciate - if only they didn't come alongside the casual breach of his sanctuary from eyes until he was ready to face people again.
He breathed deeply in and out again while he applied an ointment and wrapped the bandages around his right hand, the regeneration sped up by the heat. He was beginning to understand the Captain, he thought. What a dreadful notion.
"Want to go out to the balcony? Stars get brighter this time of year."