The paths near their ends. The laughter grows sharper. You can feel this black and white reality teetering on a razor’s edge. What part of your past will the future hold?

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Eater

The boy chatters incessantly as he leads you back to civilization. He pauses now and then to see how you will respond, but if you don’t he barrels onward, as if he cannot stand the silence.

Some time later, you find yourself standing before the hustle and bustle of a familiar scene. You remember this street well, even after all these years, and the tides of emotion rise within your throat. The boy is still chattering but now at passerby’s, greeting or bantering with them as the two of you snake your way through the evening crowd.

Lanterns wash over everything in a warm glow. Eventually, the boy stops in front of a building, but instead of going inside he leads you around the back. There’s a modest chicken coop and not much else. The inhabitants of said coop cluck softly, more so out of hunger than anxiety. They know it’s not feeding time, but the boy is known to them and they can’t help associating him with meals.

“Hush, you greedy things,” he scolds them as he ambles over to a wooden crate. “It’s our turn to eat, not yours.” There’s a cloth draped over the crate, and when he lifts it, a fragrant steam rolls up and wafts towards your nose.

Your chest tightens. You haven’t eaten this in so long. In fact, the last time you ate this, something momentous happened. Something you could never forget.

The boy grins up at you. “I was going to eat this all by myself, but since you’re here, I guess I might as well share.”

As he says this, you can hear the sounds of an old memory creeping closer. The wheels are in motion and there is nothing you can do to stop it from playing out all over again…

…or is there?

Clean One
Yuan laughs his light, twinkling laugh as he considers your jab at his penmanship. His back is to you, face turned just enough to show the gentle curve of his cheek. He’s waiting. You’re considering.

And then his familiar figure starts to fade, details blurring into obscurity as your feet carry you down a different, less certain path. He melts into a smattering of paint strokes as you move farther and farther away, toward that which is unfamiliar but perhaps more real and true.

The lantern comes to life at your behest. Only, the flame within is a very specific color. Your favorite color, in fact.

As you travel deeper into the forest, the night grows intensely darker. You can barely make out the shapes of trees around you. They look more like violent brushstrokes swept hastily across a page than the harmless woods you first entered. There are no more sounds of wildlife. The silence, as is the dark, lays thick and heavy around you.

It isn’t long before something breaks through the silence. A conversation? No, a disagreement…one you’ve heard before, or feel you have. It fills you with dread. You know how this ends and it isn’t pleasant. But perhaps, you have a chance to change it?

Itchy Fingers

Your choice is made and the red figure responds in kind. It trots toward the cave entrance, and the closer it gets, the more it glows with an eerie red light.

As you enter the cave, you find that the horse headed creature has waited for you. It moves when you move, staying seven paces from you at all times. It’s light, however, is enough to illuminate a decent radius around you both. You can see that walls are bumpy and of a matte like surface, shifting subtly beneath your scrutiny.

You travel deeper into the cave for what feels like only a few minutes when suddenly, the red creature dashes off, leaving you in complete darkness. As soon as this happens, the rest of your senses immediately heighten. You can hear, feel, smell, and even taste a powerful memory from your past. It’s one that you couldn’t forget even if you tried. As the details come rushing back to you, so do colors and shapes. They quickly flesh out a scene before you. One that has been seared into your mind.

And now, having been stranded here, you have no choice but to relive it.

Ghost Boy
The happy feelings of lakeside memories fade behind you as you stride purposefully toward the open door. As soon as you pull it further open, a gust of cold, crisp air blows through, rustling your hair.

On the other side of the door is yet another impossible scene. It is one from your childhood home, in the lush mountains of Sonshan. This particular part of the mountains, the slant of the fading sunlight, the chill in the air…you remember this. Remember being here as a child, eager to advance in your training. Overconfident in your gifts.

You were always recognized as rather special. Spirits seemed calmer around you, and some aspects of your clans sacred techniques came more easily for you than others. But on that day, you encountered a Raakgui who would not be quieted. It brought you to the very limits of your abilities and beyond, to a point of nearly no return. And so it was on that day that you learned a lesson you would never forget.

And now, caught as you are in this convoluted web of paint strokes, you have no choice but to relive it.
 
He wanted things from her. She was sure her ears were red. Could feel the heat in her cheeks. But it made her absent, when she really should've been paying attention to what he'd said. He did say something, right? Whole moment felt like a dream, and she was yet to decide if she'd treasure it as a good one. One thing was certain – she would remember. All of it. The ink wasn't only interested in taking color. It chipped away other things too. A resentment flickered deep inside as it fed on her frustration, setting fire to the fear and the wrong of it all. Because she wasn't a person you took from. Wasn't the way of her world.

The street flicked into view like another page of this story. She could pretend at being blind. Like this was all normal. A small price to pay, really. Only, even washed out – the scene was too familiar. Some memories were like water and they merely settled into the shape of her, filling room she left, squeezed out by more pressing matters. And some were tiny breaks and scratches along the bones. Even as it healed and regrew, the stiffness remained. Long after she could remember it well, she could still feel all of it. Felt salty. Like the soup offered. Would've been a stew if they'd had something to thicken it with. But no matter.

„You were gonna eat it all alone?“ Nose scrunched up. Would have said more, but the teeth clattered offbeat with her steps. Any more, and she'd feel as dumb as the chicken oracles in front of her.

It had been years since the pantry broth. Back before years had fat to them. Chest tightened a tad, inviting her hand to try and iron out the wrinkles. But no matter how much she stretched the skin or ruffled the fabric, it all felt clumped up.

„Mhm.“ He nodded and her head filled in the sound. Sounded wrong, but near enough.

She knew what this meal was. They had last meals for the dying and those on their way. This had been theirs once. And now that she knew what was about to happen, she could...

She could...

Hold out her hand and accept the bowl, knowing it'll burn her hand.

She could still prove herself strong enough for her to be taken instead.

Eight were not a glamorous posting, as she'd learned later in life. They'd take anyone who wouldn't run. Because you had to last. Whole or pickled – no one cared.

„You look“ Pffffft. „...worried.“

„Oh no. No.“
She quickly slurped some broth up, pretending it wasn't hot. Liquid sloshed down too scorching to taste of anything but salt. He'd messed up the ratio again. Wasn't good. Salt may have been one of the cheaper spices, but if they had to water down their water... well, they weren't getting anywhere. „Was just getting warm.“ The hairs on the back of arms stood up at the wrong words she was saying. This wasn't the correct memory. She wasn't supposed to be soaked. If those things could change, maybe she could...

A man in robes she'd one day recognize appeared around the edge of the house. Labored breath of someone who'd already searched inside. Because volounteers often changed their minds.

„There you are.“ The voice wasn't right. „It's time, the cart is waiting.“

„Oh.“
His shoulders sank lower than she thought they could. She turned around so she wouldn't have to see his form flatten. „Finish this for me, ye?“ He extended his own bowl and before she thought about it, she was awkwardly clinking them both together. They were hot, but that wasn't why she'd drop them. She often thought about the drop and the splash. Funny.

„Wait!“ Her voice too sudden for the body to brace, the liquid sloshed around, spilling on her hands and sleeves. On the ground.

She could...

„You take care of yourself.“ She blinked quickly, then not at all. „And come...“ visit us sometimes.

„Will do.“ The boy had a mocking expression, and the moment extended.

But she didn't change her mind. Couldn't. Because, given choice, who would want to be Nashi?

They were going now. And she'd eat well from this, she remembered. But potato couldn't replace a...whatever he was.

She covered the chicken coop with the cloth.

Birds had seen too much.
 
Black.

The flame burns black as that space betwixt the stars. The laps and ripples of shadow there in the wake of the moons. A purest purple, darker than any fist borne bruise could ever hope to dig down into flesh. Kiss bone. Bight down all the nerves and neurons, sharp with the sting of knuckle.

Midnight.

How oft she had stared up into that same translucent darkness, that she might spy the writhings and wormings of that distant dancer. Never matter what torment her coiled flesh had endured. How sweat ran across her brow, and its salt stung her eyes. Nor the ache of her legs. Tired from all their practiced work. Shivering. Trembling. With the bloodied pain of so many steps.

Come shut her eyes. And all that purple. All that black. Would swirl to neuronal green. Ebb to blue. Die to the black once again.

No matter how much she ached. No matter how much she cried. No matter how much the world about her rattled and shook. Swirled and tore. No matter how much she could smell the stink of drink on their breath. Or see the crazed look in their eyes.

She could always find herself again in the black of ink. Spread across the paper. There at the end of her brush. Her arm sure. Her wrist, like a crane's neck, measuring the sure motion.

Come the snap and hiss. The crack of voice and rattle of throat. Gasp from her breath. Flex of her wrist. Dig of her fingers about the stiff handle of that lantern stick so gripped.


"I will not see my daughter set upon the Shrine Roads! She is our Dancer! Her steps bring the Hidden One's blessings upon us!"

"What good is she to us now?"

"Don't you say that! Don't you dare throw her away, just because you, just because you!"

How she wished she had stepped in then. How she had wished she had turned that page to find a different script scrawled there across the pages.

Her grip upon her lantern grew the tighter. Her hurts, the deeper. Her resolve. The firmer.

"I regret nothing," she held fast within herself. "My path, is mine own to walk. And I take those steps that I do choose, and have chosen, so guided neath the stars, and the eight moons' light." Her fingers loosed about the bamboo wood of the lantern's stick. "I am a priestess of the Ash Clan, set unto the Dancer's path."

Ink pooled about her. Ebon, and myriad in all the colors that pulsed about its surface for they were drank in.

"I shall not stray,"
 
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