The mountain air whistled, trying at the garments with icy fingers, tugging and twisting. Her hands were caught at her shoulders against it, lest she lose the wrap about them. It was a simple shawl for now, almost blending in with the rest of her muted habit, stripped from her colours as she was out here.
Away from home. From what and who she knew. Essentially exiled.
- And how long will that be, Mother?
- I trust that to Providence.
- And in practice?
- Practical, hmh, Sister?
Irony. She should’ve staid silent then — It was bound to be longer than had she not spoken. There wasn’t a way Mother Caskin hadn’t known for how long she was sending anyone away, no matter their transgressions. Hers had never been great, but suppose things— tally up? Limits to compassion and all.
She scrunched up her face, huffing out a visible breath into the gust. The sun was hanging low, barely above the horizon, surrounded by a haze of a looming winter. A bright, prismatic halo circled it, two additional suns shining at its the edges. Sundogs. A triptych of light, one that she’d never seen before. It was rather beautiful, all things considered.
Did it mean something? Guess she could assign it whatever she wanted, since—
“ Sister Ronja? “
With the wind in her ears she had not heard another approach, as such flinching to attention. A fellow sister in her vibrant teal palla stared back at her, eyes wide at her furious expression that she often donned when startled. With how quietly everyone tread here, in their warmer felt shoes, that had been often.
“ Sorry that I should’ve so crept up on you. Again. “ It was with a chuckle as Sister Ilana came abreast, realizing that her countenance softened instantly at the sight of her. That one friend that Ronja, vown to silence for the duration of this lesson, had managed to make up here. For her dark eyes she’d appeared much like a doe to Sister Ilana, she’d been told, had it not been for her wolfish grins and a weasel’s cunning. She imagined these must’ve been charming qualities to her Sister, who’d sought her out whenever she could only a month after she’d arrived.
It’d been several now. She’d stopped counting, if only for Sister Ilana had made her swear. It’ll be easier — to not think of it, for it’ll just remind you of the approaching winter. The prospect of being stuck up here for the rest of the year thenon. The banks of snow piled on, they’d said, almost as far as to bar the doors closed. Sometimes it had, Sister Ilana would remember in a laugh. A joyful chime of a sound.
It was not the not counting that’d made it easier. At this point, she didn’t care so much anymore. If only she could’ve told her that— with her words as she had with her looks. So many of them. She tried to smile, stealing a glance sidelong and catching Sister Ilana’s profile as she squinted at the Sun. The blaze eternal, warming their faces.
“ That’s for you. I think. “
Ronja watched Sister Ilana point out at the atmospheric anomaly, letting her confusion show on her face. It made her Sister smile wider, baring teeth.
“ You’ll be going home. I rea— ahem— “ She paused to cough, muffling it in the fold of her palla. “ I read it on Mother’s correspondence, earlier. “ Though there was joy in her voice, it wasn’t devoid of regret. As Ronja turned to stare at her in disbelief, she realized her Sister’s eyes had welled up. It was the worst of sights.
Swiftly her hands left where they’d clutched at her arms, pulling her Sister into a hug. Close, finally touching so completely. Sister Ilana didn’t protest, huffing out a sorrowful laugh — it would’ve been wrong to not be glad for what was to happen, but clutch tight she did still.
“ It’ll be today, I believe. What better than three Suns to light your way, no? “
She pulled away in an exhale, only far enough to plant her forehead against hers. Sister Ilana’s palms sought her cheeks, cradling her face. Suppose she could’ve spoken by now, but there was— Too much. And having gone silent for so long, she was much too afraid to have her first and last words to her be but the croaks of a toad. She’d not have herself be remembered as that. So she just nod.
“ But fear not. You’ll not be going alone. There is— someone. A traveler, or— “ Sister Ilana spoke a little uncertainly, glancing back at where the little ridgeways path led to the monastery. Where one would be waiting later today, and her little pack pony with all her belongings. She figured she’d be going by foot, as was custom.
Suppose she’d have more than the rocks to train her voice on, then. She’d rather die than let it sound coarse by the time she was back at her home monastery, under Mother Caskin’s watch.
And what a watch it would be, from hereon. She was sure of it.
For good measure, she held onto Sister Ilana for a moment longer, tighter.
Away from home. From what and who she knew. Essentially exiled.
- And how long will that be, Mother?
- I trust that to Providence.
- And in practice?
- Practical, hmh, Sister?
Irony. She should’ve staid silent then — It was bound to be longer than had she not spoken. There wasn’t a way Mother Caskin hadn’t known for how long she was sending anyone away, no matter their transgressions. Hers had never been great, but suppose things— tally up? Limits to compassion and all.
She scrunched up her face, huffing out a visible breath into the gust. The sun was hanging low, barely above the horizon, surrounded by a haze of a looming winter. A bright, prismatic halo circled it, two additional suns shining at its the edges. Sundogs. A triptych of light, one that she’d never seen before. It was rather beautiful, all things considered.
Did it mean something? Guess she could assign it whatever she wanted, since—
“ Sister Ronja? “
With the wind in her ears she had not heard another approach, as such flinching to attention. A fellow sister in her vibrant teal palla stared back at her, eyes wide at her furious expression that she often donned when startled. With how quietly everyone tread here, in their warmer felt shoes, that had been often.
“ Sorry that I should’ve so crept up on you. Again. “ It was with a chuckle as Sister Ilana came abreast, realizing that her countenance softened instantly at the sight of her. That one friend that Ronja, vown to silence for the duration of this lesson, had managed to make up here. For her dark eyes she’d appeared much like a doe to Sister Ilana, she’d been told, had it not been for her wolfish grins and a weasel’s cunning. She imagined these must’ve been charming qualities to her Sister, who’d sought her out whenever she could only a month after she’d arrived.
It’d been several now. She’d stopped counting, if only for Sister Ilana had made her swear. It’ll be easier — to not think of it, for it’ll just remind you of the approaching winter. The prospect of being stuck up here for the rest of the year thenon. The banks of snow piled on, they’d said, almost as far as to bar the doors closed. Sometimes it had, Sister Ilana would remember in a laugh. A joyful chime of a sound.
It was not the not counting that’d made it easier. At this point, she didn’t care so much anymore. If only she could’ve told her that— with her words as she had with her looks. So many of them. She tried to smile, stealing a glance sidelong and catching Sister Ilana’s profile as she squinted at the Sun. The blaze eternal, warming their faces.
“ That’s for you. I think. “
Ronja watched Sister Ilana point out at the atmospheric anomaly, letting her confusion show on her face. It made her Sister smile wider, baring teeth.
“ You’ll be going home. I rea— ahem— “ She paused to cough, muffling it in the fold of her palla. “ I read it on Mother’s correspondence, earlier. “ Though there was joy in her voice, it wasn’t devoid of regret. As Ronja turned to stare at her in disbelief, she realized her Sister’s eyes had welled up. It was the worst of sights.
Swiftly her hands left where they’d clutched at her arms, pulling her Sister into a hug. Close, finally touching so completely. Sister Ilana didn’t protest, huffing out a sorrowful laugh — it would’ve been wrong to not be glad for what was to happen, but clutch tight she did still.
“ It’ll be today, I believe. What better than three Suns to light your way, no? “
She pulled away in an exhale, only far enough to plant her forehead against hers. Sister Ilana’s palms sought her cheeks, cradling her face. Suppose she could’ve spoken by now, but there was— Too much. And having gone silent for so long, she was much too afraid to have her first and last words to her be but the croaks of a toad. She’d not have herself be remembered as that. So she just nod.
“ But fear not. You’ll not be going alone. There is— someone. A traveler, or— “ Sister Ilana spoke a little uncertainly, glancing back at where the little ridgeways path led to the monastery. Where one would be waiting later today, and her little pack pony with all her belongings. She figured she’d be going by foot, as was custom.
Suppose she’d have more than the rocks to train her voice on, then. She’d rather die than let it sound coarse by the time she was back at her home monastery, under Mother Caskin’s watch.
And what a watch it would be, from hereon. She was sure of it.
For good measure, she held onto Sister Ilana for a moment longer, tighter.
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