It was promising to be a good day. One of precious few. Sun had tipped well past the middle and he was yet to reach for a drink. Hands grabbed buckets of slop instead. Troughs filled and pants muddied as the livingpork went about complimenting the cuisine. The lil', mean one, kept splashing mud over his boots whenever he made for a trough. Reminded Trevor of himself. Small fucker that kept getting underfoot, nose too close to other people's business, always splashing – each new one only made more of a mess. Only ever made it worse.
Life was meant to be like this. Thousand tiny toils, amounting to no more than the hoofturned mud. Turned over and misplaced, only to have it happen again tomorrow. And you never run out of those. Because where some people found boredom, Trevor found peace.
No one would ask him for horrible things here. And if he did accept a task, no one would die for it. There was freedom in those chains. Sometimes you needed constraints to understand your truer self. Wouldn't mind being imprisoned by the mundane.
Used to believe you needed to be heroic to be good. But that wasn't true. You only needed not to be harmful. And he was trying. Because a story told enough times became truth. Even as he was still stuck in the telling, he hoped it would amount to more than hope. Change, maybe.
But that was for another time.
Because now, his arms ached with effort. Despite the labor, Trevor had never gotten strong. Wondered what that was about. Perhaps if he ate more, or drank less, or slept better... But no. Wasn't him. It was a nice dream, though. Strength that wasn't borrowed. Life that made sense.
Pigs looked at him like a god whenever he brought food. Wondered what he'd see in their eyes when he returned with a knife. That was a world he understood better – because even when life was comfortable, it merely tried to fatten you up.
Hired hand had many meanings. He liked this one.
Hands dug into the freezing waters of a nearby stream. Washed the grime off until it became unclear whether he trembled with fatigue or chill. Forearm hairs betrayed him, so he bid them shush.
„Pass the rag, will you?“
Life was meant to be like this. Thousand tiny toils, amounting to no more than the hoofturned mud. Turned over and misplaced, only to have it happen again tomorrow. And you never run out of those. Because where some people found boredom, Trevor found peace.
No one would ask him for horrible things here. And if he did accept a task, no one would die for it. There was freedom in those chains. Sometimes you needed constraints to understand your truer self. Wouldn't mind being imprisoned by the mundane.
Used to believe you needed to be heroic to be good. But that wasn't true. You only needed not to be harmful. And he was trying. Because a story told enough times became truth. Even as he was still stuck in the telling, he hoped it would amount to more than hope. Change, maybe.
But that was for another time.
Because now, his arms ached with effort. Despite the labor, Trevor had never gotten strong. Wondered what that was about. Perhaps if he ate more, or drank less, or slept better... But no. Wasn't him. It was a nice dream, though. Strength that wasn't borrowed. Life that made sense.
Pigs looked at him like a god whenever he brought food. Wondered what he'd see in their eyes when he returned with a knife. That was a world he understood better – because even when life was comfortable, it merely tried to fatten you up.
Hired hand had many meanings. He liked this one.
Hands dug into the freezing waters of a nearby stream. Washed the grime off until it became unclear whether he trembled with fatigue or chill. Forearm hairs betrayed him, so he bid them shush.
„Pass the rag, will you?“