… I bet he’s stripped them of their gold teeth by now, Osytha muses. She and Esota are wending their way through that stand of birch pinching at the road, rustling and snapping by careful steps over old fallen twigs and leaf litter. Faramund and Evelyn had best move quick smart if theys want their cut.
Conroy’s reputation is well-feared, and there comes a time in every fresh Sworn’s fledgling career when another, more experienced soul will take them aside, offer some congratulations on pledging their oath and, oh, by the way, I heard you’re to be teamed up with Syr Conroy soon — no, you’re in good hands, the man’s a staunch ally and handy in a pinch, just, them fingers is also a ti-i-iny bit sticky so if there’s anything you don’t want him making off with you’d best nail it down good and proper, also, I find a couple of decoy coinpurses don’t go amiss, or rather they do… anyway, good luck out there, syr…
… well, after what he pulled off at the end there, the man’s more than welcome to my share.
Light sways around them, curing into warm hues and a hard angle at this long afternoon hour, and heavily dappled by the regrowth well along its way across the boughs overhead. Osytha’s glad she thought to bring them out here. It’s so much softer on the ears, though the screaming of horses has since abated. It’s much softer on the eyes, too. And quite pleasant, actually, now she’s divested herself of mail and gambeson. Down to just her long shirt and hosen, she can feel a blessed breeze lifting the sweat off her skin.
As she continues to scoop up promising bits of tinder, Osytha becomes aware that her shoes are the only ones crunching overground. She halts, crouched there in the act of grabbing a sturdy fallen bough, and glances behind. The girl holds herself tense, hands like claws over a small load of kindling in her arms, and her eyes squeezed shut beneath a furrowed brow.
“What?” Esota demands, in a strained voice.
Osytha just looks back at her, blankly. “Eh? What?”
“What do you mean—?! You know what!” Those brown eyes finally open to meet hers, and that anger is still there plain to see. Plain in her voice, too. “You didn’t just, just drag me out here to collect sticks. So — say it, already! Whatever you’re going to say, just, get it over with…!”
They stare at each other a moment longer, Osytha hunched low to the earth, Esota ramrod-straight and stiffer by far than any of the trees surrounding them. Until the elder one sighs, and turns her gaze away.
“I’m jus’… ’elpin’ thee to finish what tha began’st is all,” she says, softly.
Esota turns her ire toward the bundle of fuel that she herself has collected so far. “Ugh, this is — why do we even have to bother with this?” She looks about ready to dash her humble jag to the ground. “Can’t we just, I don’t know, chop their heads off or something?”
Osytha sucks her teeth. “Aye, that might do et,” she concedes. She hauls herself back up and starts forward again, eyes roving the woodland floor. “Or et might not. Tha wold’st be surprised at ’ow little et teks for ’em to come back.”
“Wait… without a head?” Even in this state, it seems as though Esota is not immune from morbid curiosity. “How’s that work?”
“Depends. I’d put good money on us windin’ up wi’ a dullahan or twa, given t’conditions. Reight nasty buggers. Nukekubi are likely aht of t’picture… though, Syr Kenneth an’ I hunted a krasue, once.” Osytha shudders at the memory. “An’ once were more’n enow— ’old on, nay. Nay, we en’t talkin’ of such things, not after t’day we’ve just ’ad. Suffice to say: burnin’s t’surest way.
“We’s goin’ to end up wi’ a fair deal of green wood or that which en’t yet dried aht from t’spring thaw, so’s we’ll be needin’ much more kindlin’ to get t’rest to catch…”
But Esota stays put. Not so rigid as before, no, yet still unable to move past something there. “I thought…” And, yes, her voice has likewise shrunk away, “… I thought you were going to, I don’t know — yell at me, I guess. Tell me what I did was stupid, and dangerous. Something like that…”
Another promising bit of branch catches Osytha’s eye, but she leaves it for now. It feels like she’s just found what she’s looking for, and the pyrewood can wait. She raises her eyes up to between the trunks studded with their many, watchful black eyes, at a glimpse of honey-licked fields just beyond.
Stupid and dangerous, huh? Osytha sees herself back on that plain out there, when she’d looked behind and found Syr Faramund riding to her aid. She hears the awful, awful sound of that sword ringing out a blow against her dawnling’s helm. It hasn’t quite faded from her ears, that noise. Toils, when she’d seen it happen…
“Huh? No, no, I don't have any coin on me. I’m just fuckin’ with you, Os! I'm fine!”
“Don’t reckon I’ve a leg to stand on, callin’ thee aht on such a thing,” Osytha murmurs.
This garners an incredulous look from the other woman. “You can’t mean that?” Esota’s face twists with fresh anger. “How can you mean that? I saw— with the spear, and then, the other one… he was just, dead, in moments. One shot, behind you while you were galloping, and next thing he was… gone. And then all you and Syr Faramund had to, had to do was look at that third one. One look at you both and he bolted, so don’t— don’t you dare! You’re not at all like me! I can’t even… I can’t…”
Osytha faces her now. Ten feet away from one another; a world apart from everyone else. They’re shimmering in this sunset confessional, and the light is sparkling off Esota’s guilt as it spills out her eyes.
“… I knew it as soon as they came charging at us,” whispers Laverock. “It was different seeing something like that for real. I knew then we were going to die, and it was my fault. I convinced the others to follow me out there, you know? I thought we could help, but I didn’t— I didn’t do anything. Syr Conroy had to save us. And then that Rodhan soldier, he was just lying there. Helpless. And I…”
Esota looks down at her hands, like she’s seeing them for the first time in her life. “That’s all I can manage, is it?” Her fingers curl a little harder about the sticks, and Osytha watches those knuckles whiten. “Only when someone else has already taken care of it, and they’re completely helpless? And the more I— each time that I… i-it just made me feel even weaker. I hated it.
“I couldn’t stop them when it mattered. I couldn’t do anything. Again. I still couldn’t do anything. I’m just… useless.”
Hazel eyes rise up, brimming with tears, to meet Osytha’s. “I want to go home,” Esota tells her, simply. “I w-want to see m-mum. Why can’t I j-just go h-home—?”
Osytha strides forward. Her firewood clatters off to the side and she takes Esota’s away to join it, then scoops the girl up into an embrace. One arm crooked right around her, the other’s hand cradling the back of her head. Draws her in so close. Feels Esota clinging on desperately in turn; feels sobbing breath and tears upon her neck.
“Shh-hh,” Osytha croons. She kisses Esota’s hair, then rests her cheek against it, and speaks in hushed tone. “Oh, dear girl… Sotie, love. Shh now, my little lark…”
The trees drink up the sound of it all. Keeps it just to them two, hidden away. Light turns a little more golden yet. Shadows starker, from rippling canopy slowly to solid stripes cast from trunks. The beasts of this place turn aside from the noise, and let the intruders have it to themselves awhile. No song thrush’s melody nor magpie’s warble here; just the keening of a lost little duckling.
What is Osytha supposed to say in this situation? Probably something about how taking another’s life is an incredible burden, best left to others… but that might be a touch hypocritical coming from a Knight, and besides, it doesn’t sound like that’s even what has shaken Esota. Quite the opposite, in fact. Should she tell some lie about how they won’t ever have to worry about defending themselves once they reach their destination? No, surely that’s even worse.
When that weeping has tired out a bit, Osytha presses another kiss on Sotie’s crown. “Listen to me, Esota Laverock,” she murmurs, stroking Esota’s hair. “What you all did, aye, et were terribly reckless, an’ foolish. But et were also that brave, an’ et were ’elpful.” Osytha leans back, and her hands come up to cup Esota’s face. She looks between those brown eyes, her thumbs helping wipe away a few of the girl’s tears. “When you lot appeared on t’field, them cavalrymen lost a lot of room to manoeuvre. They ’ad to split their focus even further, an’ they panicked. Et en’t a coincidence that Syrs Evelyn an’ Conroy dispatched ’em so hastily reight after you stepped aht there. You gave us an openin’, so, nay. Tha wert, an’ tha art, ne useless, my pet. Unnerstand?”
Maybe that’s also the wrong thing to take away from all this. But Esota seems to be calming, one way or another. She holds Osytha’s gaze for a second, then her grief-weary visage lowers down, and she nods.
“Good lass,” Osytha tells her, and brings the girl in close again. “If et’s important to thee that tha feel’st ready, should t’time come again — I pray that et doesn’t, but I can’t promise et won’t — then I’m sure that’s summat us Knights can ’elp you all wi’, goin’ forward.
“’Owever, that’s enow of that for today, for there’s a pyre as needs buildin’ whilst there’s yet light to do so. Now then, Esota Laverock — let us finish what we started.”